Do i deserve what I have??

I have had a small but a eventful life till now. I have had the opportunity to have experienced all kinds of life right from extreme poverty to opulent lives. And I am glad what those experiences have taught me.

But there have been times I wonder do I deserve what i have? Not in terms of work because thats one area I believe i have done enough to deserve what I have. I have the potential to get more but then its a story of unfulfilled potential.But what about life? I have been fortunate enough to have been praised by people but I always have been very ill at ease with the compliments. Why? Because I believe I haven't done anything of any significant importance to deserve any praise. When I left my job people said many things about me and I was left wondering the compliments are fine but then what they say as my good things have they done anything to impact someone's life in a positive manner? If no then why the praise? If I haven't done anything on that front then all the praises are hollow and I truly believe that.

I never wanted  to be the Mr good, because I am myself to messed up to help others. I do believe whatever I have done what others ascribe to be 'good work' are infact is what any other person will do. I haven't done anything out of this world. And another grouse I have against people praising me or rather what I believe is nonsense is isn't it said 'That good things happen to good people" then why is it that the so called good guy has nothing when it comes to his life . Yes I have money,food,and lead a good lifestyle but then I always have been unlucky. Not that I believe in fate and luck but at times i become so frustrated that I end up blaming them.

Anyways guys don't praise me because I don't deserve the adulation. The day when I do something of significance I will myself come up and shout from the rooftops asking for the praise.